Feeling confident in your own skin

“To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh
From the time I was a little girl, people told me I was pretty, but I never believed them. Instead, I scrutinized myself in the mirror searching for ways to look better, not realizing that what I was really looking for was a way to be me and feel good about myself.
As I focused even more on my looks throughout my twenties, I became increasingly self-conscious and dependent on how others perceived me. If someone complimented me and gave me attention, I would feel confident, but if I went unflattered or unnoticed, I would return to the mirror in an effort to figure out why.
 but, i grow up not very confident girl. i was a bit chubby in weight. all my friends were a bit thin than i was. so, growing up in the streets of Lebanon, Mabopane, as a big child it wasn't eeasy. imagine bumping into one of your uncles wife, calling you by the name "sdudla" which mean fatty..
that's probably not the most warmest reception ever.  i struggled fitting in different groups..

Being confident in your own skin

 

“To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh
From the time I was a little girl, people told me I was pretty, but I never believed them. Instead, I scrutinized myself in the mirror searching for ways to look better, not realizing that what I was really looking for was a way to be me and feel good about myself.
As I focused even more on my looks throughout my twenties, I became increasingly self-conscious and dependent on how others perceived me. If someone complimented me and gave me attention, I would feel confident, but if I went unflattered or unnoticed, I would return to the mirror in an effort to figure out why.
I had often heard the expression “what you are inside shows on your face.” However, I didn’t know what these words truly meant until one day at the age of thirty-five.

PURPOSE



Many people have different aspects about life, but I believe in fulfilling a purpose in life, to find my calling while gratifying God’s intentions for me. Whether it is spiritual, career, or dream related.
A couple years back I was hesitant of the direction of my life, I was just saved; something believed to be one of Gods many purposes in this world for us. I approached a question, what my purpose in this world was and how I was going to figure it out. Honestly, I still don’t know what my purposes are, but as I began growing closer to God the more I felt that I was growing spiritually. Along the way I’ve come to realize that the only spiritual intention is to become a better Christian, to not only to do good for myself but good for others.

On that road to seeking a future along with happiness,  I was in search of my calling. I always knew that I wanted to go to college and get a career to one day become successful. I searched for my passion in life.As we get older we gain responsibilities and make our dreams realities, to one day form the foundation of what will contour us into what we will become. As time passes by I want to grow wiser; I want a better relationship with God, and I want to know that whatever I do with my life will have a connection with His intentions for me. I want to fulfill my life’s purposes while spreading the world of the Lord, and to become selfless in every aspect. In order to find true happiness, we must first look for God and fulfill our purpose.
In the future, I will look back and think of all my accomplishments. I will perceive my life not as a lifeless body, but a body that experienced the full ride of life. I will have fulfilled my purpose in life.

when everything's seems all good but something inside does not feel right?
Academics testing your soul and being overwhelmed. when everyone's turning their back on you, when you are most vulnerable and need their support. mood shift, hostility, impulsivity, loneliness and probably the most chaotic social relationships. that's when you know yo need some Devine intervention in your life. we all need something that can keep us going, some sort of a motivation and inspiration so to be able to move forward.

I usually try to meditate when ever I feel the pressure on my shoulders and feeling like I am about to burst. I was having a conversation with one of my friends the other day, she was basically expressing how she feels inside, how she is literally exhausted about life, how everything else is not going her way. Her boyfriend of 4 years left her and all that. if you totally know me, you would know that, I'm totally not judgmental, I'm actually that one friend who would try to cheer you up as I was listening to her, I pose a question to her, asked if she ever prays, she node her head.

for me praying, is not just a conversation with God or telling the Lord all your problems and probably
saying your thank yous, praying for me is more than that, it involves being able to listen and interact with God. being able to be at calm, away from the stresses of this world in your own space, to be able to realise all the negativity that has been surrounding you for a while now, allowing the holy spirit, to fill in that empty void for a while now.

I may sound as if I am preaching now, but I always believe that everyone stick to some sort of super power in which it works out for them. either way, it is a free country, everyone's entailed to anything that pleases them. I think we may be different, but not quite, as Christians, if it works out for me, it can suite you as well. that's what I told my friend as we were chilling, I think taking a walk and interacting with people, especially those with similar problems it can help.
own your happiness.